Preserve my current situation?

Sincerly, I still have a little shy. This is my first time to leave home, sleeping out alone. Just say goodbye to parents. End of training life, and face the future of college life, I still had some confusion about my dream.

My mother often said I had any problem, I should ask for the question rather than thought in the heart.But I didn't dare to quiz directly. So, in class I just made a big mistake. At the end of the class when the teacher went to ask whether we still have any problem. In reality, I had a little matter of the grammar. But I can not put forward. Then the teacher decide to make a temporary test. At that moment, I feel sorrow. Why I didn't solve my problem immediately.

The test paper is full of question, but what I wrote is so less. And I can not face the awkward situation.What should I do to resolve the problem?

Bold questions or preserve my current situation?

To Make A Breakthrough

Another ten days holiday slipped away unknowingly. What a haphazard and blithe life I was enjoying. Inscrutably, I had a feeling that I want to lead a challenging and fruitful life instead of an immutable one. What a quaint thought. It’s really inexplicable and somehow outlandish. Well, life is neither stale nor insipid. How come I had this grotesque feeling? If is not a whim, it must be a caprice. Maybe this idea could be my catalyst that propels me forward. Yeah, I had indulged myself in a static life for a while. Perhaps it is judicious to make a breakthrough and kick off the beaten path.

What’s my purpose of learning English? That is nothing more than interest. I love this uninhibited feeling. It’s not a herculean task for me anyway. Yesterday, Auntie Chen suggested me to enter for TOEFL examination. (She is one of my colleagues who loves me protects me like a mother.) The crux of the matter is that I was the laziest student ever and I didn’t learn English systematically or professionally. When I found myself mesmerized by this language, it was too late to transform the fact that I am not a student anymore. This did not quench my enthusiasm to embark on learning still. Thankfully, I didn’t have any wishful thinking that allowed me to addict to its allurement. I enjoy learning it whenever and wherever. But as I have mentioned above I didn’t learn it systematically, what’s more, my grammar sucks. I wonder how can I pass the exam?

Yeah, I cannot be so degage anymore and it’s time to focus on learning English language intensively and wholeheartedly. I need this incentive to make a sparkle in my life. Ha~ Auntie Chen is like a magic wand to me. Maybe it will be a fluff or fluke, who knows?